welcoming a new member into the family!

Exactly as the title said! Welcoming a new member into this loud family of mine!

HAHAHAHA, you must be wondering if I will get a new baby brother or sister right? TETT. 

Oh, sorry dear, you're just wrong. I'm welcoming Toothless the Night Fury into my family!

If you refer to my previous blog entry you will surely understand what I am talking about.
Yes people, Toothless from How To Train Your Dragon. Mummy bought me the Toothless plushie that I had always wanted! Well, I didn't ask her to buy it. I just ask her if she could bring me to Empire so that I could buy it. Then she said, yes and boom! She bought me Toothless today! 
I didn't ask her why she bought it but simply thanked her. Maybe it was because of my result? I don't know. It could be that, it could be not. But anyways, due to my happiness from getting Toothless, I could not stop smiling. I was literally grinning to everyone at the Empire, which was replied with weird or 'what-is-wrong-with-this-girl-ew' look. I could not care less. So, mummy said she was hungry and wanted to go The Loaf. I told her to go on ahead, I wanted to grab myself Crazy Potato and I did. I ordered for Pickled Mayo, yes. It is my favorite. While others are obsessed with Starbucks, I am obsessed with fries and food. I don't drink, I don't smoke and I don't do drugs. I eat. In case you don't know, I had fried rice and managed to finish the whole bowl all by myself before heading to Empire. When I said bowl, don't go imagining those normal sized bowls you guys use for your soup. I mean, the big bowl you use to put a large amount of food for several people. Yeah, that bowl. Then I had the Crazy Potato which was a lot and then, when we headed home, we stopped by Panmour ( a family restaurant in my neighbourhood ) and I had Cantonese Kuey Teow. What can I say, I'm a girl with a big hearty appetite! 
Aaaaaaaaaand, then I vomited :-----)
But anyways, Toothless!

Welcome to the family you mischievous lil dragon!

Uhmm, that's the best picture of me and Toothless okay.
the fugliness level is still on the highest.

Just how bad I want a dragon :---)

So. . .mummy had gone back to Ipoh and I am here in Shah Alam with my dad and little brother. 
And this evening, my dad brought us to Empire because my little brother had been pestering him to take him there because he wanted to buy LEGOs at Toy's R Us. 

I was too short so this is the angle from below, LOL

So story cut short, we were there. While my brother was looking at his LEGO section, I was just wandering aimlessly in the store until I saw this adorable Toothless plushie! Ohohohohohoohoh, I want it bad I'm telling ya. Sadly, I didn't have enough green with me during that time and I actually wanna save money so that I could go out with a 'certain someone' you know what I mean //coughscoughs// okaaaaaaayyyy. 

Anyways, on the box, it says that Toothless can make roaring sound, whinny and others too, I forgot. So I pressed his belly and IT WAS ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING THING THAT EVER HAPPENED IN MY LIFE TOOTHLESS WAS ACTUALLY MAKING SOUND MY LIFE IS COMPLETED. again. Sorry, I couldn't help myself but to fangirls over this qtpie. 
Aaaaaaand, I decided to buy it and I look at the price.
And, this happened.

my reaction to the price

so here is a poem that doesnt rhyme for you guys to describe my feels right now

I didn't buy it.
even though I want it bad.
It's worth the sacrifice.
I hope :--) 
Imma crey.
Toothless as a plushie toy dragon.
That can make sounds.
You guys know how I feel about plushies. and dragons.
especially when it can make sounds.
Just, //creys.
I can't hold it any longer ;A;

another HTTYD toys that I want but can't have it so having this picture is like the precious thing I could ever had. thank you.

Pets,

Tell me, what come crossing your mind when you think of pets?
Surely some of you would think of cats, rabbits, dogs or terrapins. Maybe birds.
I used to have pet terrapins but two died and I let one go because I'm scared that it might die too.
It's not that I didn't feed it or anything. I often feed it on time, cherish it with my love and mum said,
"Well, they die because of too much love." I'm not sure whether it was supposed to be a joke or mum was serious. Because my brother's terrapin lasted longer than mine and he didn't even bother to look after it. Maybe mine decided to commit suicide because I was too overly attached to it. What can I say, I was a lonely little girl who wanted attention, even from a terrapin.

While you guys think of cats, rabbits, dogs, terrapins or birds or any other animals, I'm thinking of dragons.
Yes, that fire breathing magical beast. Just imagine owning a dragon as your pet. Life would not be the same, I could tell that for sure.

Their eggs, no matter how many times you pounded it with a hammer or tried to scratch it with sharp objects, it would remain unharmed. Dragon eggs are not the same as the bird's eggs, they are larger and might be the size of your foot. Their oval eggs with clean glistening shells as if you clean it every single day. And once it hatched, just imagine a baby dragon came out crawling and that would be one of the most magical things. You might have to teach it how to fly, or go through the trouble of finding meat for it. You might even get frustrated at how stubborn they could be, but one thing for sure, it will be worth it. They too might throw tantrums like babies as it is a creature with heart and desire.

I've always dream of having a pet dragon, no, I do not just dream, I want a pet dragon. Badly if I must say. With them as big as house, maybe bigger, that I could ride it up into the sky, soaring through the clouds, grazing against the wind. It's scales are clear as a crystal and shiny as a gemstone. Just imagine a life with a dragon, what an adventure it would be! 

 

Kids dieting,

Yesterday night, roughly around 10 or 11 pm I went out to grab myself some food as I was starving.

"aren't you worried about your weight?" was the FAQ whenever I told people I often have a late night snack or heavy food.

Well, let me tell you one thing, no. I'm not worried about gaining weight. I'm more worried on starvation like, come on people! I'm not going to starve for days and days just to look good and blend into the society. just like Jennifer Lawrence had said. 

"That's dumb." 

True to that, Jen.

I've seen kids, as of they're like 12 and below 15 trying to lose weight or have a diet.

I mean, you're freaking 12! What are you doing trying to lose some weight?! 

well, unless you're an obese. But then again, you're not.

Why would you want to have a diet at such a young age.

Are you trying to please some boy at school just because he calls you fat?

You should be eating anything that you desire, you should be enjoying life!

Not dieting because you want to please the society. 

Sure you can be the 'big' one but you can grow out of that, but the society? they will never be pleased.

So why bother?

Is it more important to please the society than yourself?

For all I know, at the age of 12, there's no need for you to lose weight or go on a diet.

I just don't see the reason, but again, like I've mentioned, you're an obese then you need to control.

But besides that, I just don't see the reason why. 

Just love your body as it is, kids.

go and eat, don't starve.

take this cat for an example 

xoxo exo,

now, we all know how popular EXO is.

They were hated at first now it seems like people all over the place are loving them.

I'm not complaining, I'm one of those people too.

I like them, since MAMA era, but then Wolf era kicked in and suddenly, everyone claims they had been together with EXO since the boys first debuted.

Alright alright, i admit it that I started to really really like them since Wolf era because I was focusing on BAP and still is (i like the hip hop kind of band with strong image)

Back before EXO's Wolf era, my tlist were filled with multifandoms.

VIP, BLACKJACK, BABY, ARMY, SONES, ELF, just name it, they're there.

But after the Wolf era, I hardly see any other fandom besides exostans! 

 I'm not hating on EXO or anything, I'm just saying that I'm missing the old times.

Where everyone from each fandom updated about their oppars/unnies/noonas/hyungs.

now it's just. . .exo. . .

i wonder if you guys still remember the others too

Chapter 2014

Alhamdulillah, 

I am able to open a new chapter of this 365 blank pages.

In my last book, a lot of things had happened.

The good ones, the bad ones, the sweet and the bitter.

But it was all worth it.

I must say that I regret none of it.

It was wonderful. It was magical.

I was able to see new things, meet new friends.

None of it was regretful. 

For this new chapter of the book, I am hoping.

Hoping that I am able to write an adventure.

It doesn't matter if it is sweet, or bitter.

Doesn't matter if it good or bad.

For all I want is a book that is worth of reading, worth of recalling.

Chapter 2014

I am looking forward into writing you.

The Idol

[TRANS] Message from a Chinese fan.

When you are feeling too tired, you must remember your idol.

That is, the idol whom you were once so crazily in love with.

That is, the idol whom you used to memorize their facts faster than memorizing new vocab.

That is, the idol whom you used to write about, about how much you love them on your blog.

That is, the idol that you are able to type his/her name on the keyboard even with your eyes closed.

You must be thankful, but at the same time clearheaded.

When someone forcefully asks you, what on earth made them worthy of you wasting your youth on them,

you must tell him.

I only gave my most beautiful memory to them, but they gave up more precious stuff than me during that period of youth.

When you are on the field under the hot sun for physical training,

you need to remember, your idol once perspired profusely in the practice room for you.

When you are sitting in class, with absolutely no interest in the textbook,

you need to remember, your idol once, for the rehearsal, hurt his/her vocal cords.

When you are sprawling on your bed, complaining about how tough your day was,

you need to remember, your idol had to perform on stage for you despite running a high fever, or sitting in a wheelchair.

He is your idol.

We might not be on the same land breathing the same air, but we can feel each other.

Since he did it, why can't you?

when you can't hold on, you must remember your idol?

Running on the track, your ears filled with hot air and unbearable panting.

Your friend is at the end point shouting the name of your idol, you must grit your teeth, and you must dash over.

He is your destination, he is your strength.

Your secret crush has someone else in mind, and your shy love letter hasn't even been handed over.

You lock yourself up in your own room, looking at the posters of him who is still the same, choking up on your tears.

Never mind, I still have you, you.

This world, perhaps exist betrayal, escapism, depression and all sorts of unhappiness.

As long as you open Twitter every day, and start browsing through his updates.

You chuckle; sitting in front of the computer. Remember, that is the real you.

Your idol 

might have undergone all sorts of incidents, or maybe an accident, even the doctors said there is no hope.

Some of the members might have done something wrong, even some fans said they will not love them anymore.

Maybe time has diminished some of his popularity; even those who don't really follow him say he is not popular anymore.

Maybe his company never thought of putting in efforts in their promotions, with no intentions of further plans.

At that time, at that moment, how did he survive?

Although fans had committed mistakes, idols, too. He has his own shortcomings, problems, or even has many people looking down on him.

Although he is not perfect, but you have to be thankful.

When you have your own love, you must remember your idol.

After entering adulthood, you finally have your own life.

He, too, might already have his own. Be it happy, be it blissful.

That past years of missing lessons to watch his concert,

that past years of squeezing in front to buy tickets,

that past years of pasting posters all over the wall,

that past years of scribbling his name all over the textbooks.

You might have been crazy before, 

but when you recall those years, you need to be proud, because that is one of a kind, something others don't have.

You protect him, forsaking your own limelight.

You devote your love towards him, no longer thinking about other guys, but also at the same time developing rationality and your own perception towards life.

Looking at him, from being a teen to adult, with stubby moustache growing out of his cheeks, with wrinkles on his face when he smiles.

That is the traces of your love, which has undergone the vicissitudes of life, so thunderous.

So what if you are old, you need to be proud, because you experienced the purifying of time.

He stood for you, for you.

When he announces that he found his other half.

You cried, you teared. Because he has reached the shore, you are finally at ease and assured.

The position where you once dreamed of being at, someone has stood there in your place, for you.

So many years, you watched him fall and stand up on his own.

You finally feel relieved, that he has shoulders to lean upon.

Just that there is a little, just a little tinge of regret. Why, the one giving him happiness is not your own self.

You have to remember your idol.

Those years, the person who has been giving you your happiness, rage, sorrow and joy..The one controlling your mind.

Even if he no longer appears on the screens of your TV, your hand phone screen still, is filled with memories.

Even if his name no longer appears on the fashion magazines, your diary still, is filled with doodles and love.

Seeing how he shines on stage, dancing,

standing under the spotlight, talking to us and smiling with a microphone,

the way he stands on the steps, crying when he heard the fans singing along,

the way he receives the award and look at the cheering crowd,

and the first time, seeing him and forgetting about time.

No matter where time goes, in your heart, he is always, like that.

You must remember your idol.

You once boasted about his good, despite receiving disagreeing looks on the faces of the people around you.

Your blog is full of his news,

just to let people who understand you, know how blissful it is to like him.

You once quarreled with others because of him.

You don't cry when people scold you, throw things at you, but your eyes turn red when someone is just badmouthing them.

On what basis, you ask, since they don't understand him, how dare they think they have the rights to criticize them.

He is your life.

You hid under your blankets, crying, because of him. Having wild thoughts in the middle of the night, 

how has he been, how was his injuries, what did he meant when he said that.

Tired, after a short nap you wake up and continue to love him.

You are not afraid of anything, so long as he is there.

Some people in this world might be physically close to you, but can never understand why you like him.

You must tell them, the word "fortitude" is not something that can be taught by anyone.

And he gave you this precious thing.

So, you must remember your idol.

Dear, since now we are still young.

You have to work hard, to become someone worthy of him,

to be able to meet him someday, and stand next to him deservingly.

You must, must tell him personally.

You must tell him that you are thankful that you didn't miss him, in the midst of billion of people.

Thank him for his companionship for the past few years, whether be it crying or laughing.

You must, deeply, with that choked up voice of yours, carefully, shout his name.

-- I used to; love you, that, that, that much.

[Even if time has passed, don't worry, the white-haired me will remember the black-haired you, while loving the white-haired you.]

by:蓝爵Yoyo

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I shed tears after reading this. It's just so well written & it's all true. 

For me, it will always be myBIGBANGoppars :*

THANKU&U

what just happened today was. . . I can't even,

Ughhhh, okay, right now I feel so embarrassed but I just wanna tell you guys bout this.

I have this habit of pretending to be a squidor aninja or something. Like literally. I like to spread my arms wide and wave it like crazy or like a retard. To be precise. I usually do that in school with my retarded friends because they're just as crazy as I am. When you're hanging out with you gals a lot, you'll feel like they're there with you even if they're not.

Soherehowitgoes.

I had a day off from work today due to migraine and yes, I am very happy about it. LOL. Story cut short, I went out just now, with my pals. We were just hanging out by the streets and do silly stuffs since we havent seen each other in a loooooooong time now that we've graduated from high school. 

The first thing that came up in our conversation is non other than kpop. obviously.

Then there was a couple of boys & girls. I assumed they hate kpop because whenever we squealed, they purposely gagged themselves which irritated me & my girls. I mean, we didn't even squealed or spazzed that loud. My friend Kimi, had a laptop with her so she opened Teen Top's new MV, 'I Wanna Love'. I've watched the MV yesterday but I watched it again today because of they're justadorkable. 

While we squealed in delight, they went on gagging again. This time, they added "kpop are gay." They did that on purpose. So I went, "I love gay people!" Still squealing like a retard & did a high five to my besties like an awesome person I am. I guess they were not satisfied with us, some people are just like that. They don't know us, but they like to diss us. They kept on going & going how gay kpop guys are & stuffs while we were like 

When you're with your friends, there's no need for you to cover up & act decently, especially if they're your best friends. Yeah, I just went all out & be myself since they know me so well. I mean, even if I act a little decent, they went. "Who the hell are you woman?!" So yeah. After replaying the MV over & over again ( we couldn't get enough of it ) we took a moment to appreciate the boys' hotness in the MV by exchanging perverted looks with each other.

( the most perverted looking gif i could find ) 

Then, me & Erika went to 7E, leaving Kimi & Qiss at the table with Melanie, who arrived a few minutes later after the spazzing. Nothing much there in 7E, we just looked at the manga section, then we looked at the delicious looking ice creams but LOL, we didn't buy it. Then Erika said something, I couldn't remember it, but the next thing I know was that, I did that squid thingy. Remember when I said I like to pretend to be a squid? Yeah, I did that, in 7E because there was no one there. The cashier wasn't insight.

( i'm surprise this gif existed. this is just perfect )

When I said the cashier wasn't insight, I was wrong. He was actually crouching down behind the counter, ( i think ) and when I was done with my squid dance, i found out that he was there the whole time, behind the counter, looking at me with that "o. . . kay. . ." kind of awkward look. Let me just bury my face as my dignity had gone down the drain. He was super cute but not my type but still, to have a cute guy looking at you doing something so embarrassing like that was just ASDFGHJKL So I covered it up by acting cool, ( which was a total fail since he saw the whole thing )

Erika told the others the whole thing & their reactions were pretty muchpredictable.

ONESHOT

Have you guys watched BAP's ONESHOT? I know I'm like a few days late but I was busy so gimme a break will ya? ASDFGHJKL, Yongguk looks so manly and and Jongup! My Jongup finally has more line! I can;t even STHAP right now! Their MV are just amazing! I'm lost of words for it!

But the ending of the MV. When Youngjae was shot. I was like, ugh. Why kill him?! You got your goddamn money already! Eff this shit!

and when the second ending came in, I think my reaction was a lot better than the first one since it's Youngjae.

Oh, remember that part when Zelo did his back flopping dance? That was just hella cool. I just had to try it out. So I did & my back, was awfully hurt. Still that didnt stop me. I kept on trying & trying. I just had to ace this dance ( If mum knows, I'm sure she wished I'm like this when it comes to studying ) Epic fail comes after another so today, I was determined. I tried it again for three times & finally! Finally gets it right! 

Oh, that's all for now.